If you like to follow blogs, Ann Voskamp's is one to follow. The quote above is from her latest blog. This was just what I needed to read...needed to hear in my heart. (And for you church-going families, I bet we've all had a Sunday like that).
I've always thought that I'm good with change. After all, not many people can leave home at 16 and spend a year halfway across the world, right? But God is showing me...that I'm not.
Brian's dad is gone.
Grandma is in the nursing home.
My baby is growing up.
The house keeps falling apart.
The money keeps draining from the account.
And all these things are fine. We are going on. God is blessing us over and over and I'm not seeing it. God is providing and lifting up and changing our hearts...
but I'm too busy stuck on bitterness.
Of course there are other things that are on my heart. Healing for friends. Needs in the family.
At church on Sunday, I led a song called, I Will Never Be the Same Again.
The chorus says,
There are higher highs, there are deeper seas
Whatever you need to do, Lord do it in me
The glory of God fills my life
And I will never be the same again.
Does the glory of God fill my life? Am I willing to let Him do what He wants? Surrender? Days when the pruning that God has promised feels like a machete hacking away at the past and the wounds and the attitudes.
Sometimes the most impossible person to live with is yourself.
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